March 26, 2009

  • Tina The Juggler

    Tina was a juggler.  She could juggle 4 balls at one time with some level of comfort but a fifth ball always overwhelmed her.  Tina was juggling the balls of death, depression, divorce, loneliness and low self-esteem.

    Tina made friends with Kathy.  Kathy gave Tina the ball of death.  Kathy’s husband died suddenly of a heart attack.  So whenever she was in pain, she turned to Tina.  Tina was a loving person who was compassionate.  She did not mind helping Kathy.  Kathy had been through so much. 

    Tina also made friends with Tim.  Tim gave Tina the ball of depression.  Tim had been suffering from depression for years.  Tina was a loving person so she was there for Tim and gave him someone to turn to when he was down.  Tim could call Tina at any time of the night.  Tina would listen as he cried.  Tina knew Tim’s depression took him to great lows.  She wanted to make sure someone was there for him.  Tim totally depended on Tina’s friendship.

    Tina was able to juggle both balls at the same time.

    One day Tina met Karen.  Karen gave Tina the ball of divorce.  Karen was going through her divorce.  Karen’s husband left her for another woman.  Karen was devastated.  Tina saw her pain and was there for Karen.  Karen depended on Tina to keep her life going.  She would call Tina during the day.  She would sometimes call her 10 times a day.  Tina was a good friend.

    Tina was friends with Julie since middle school.  Julie gave Tina the ball of low self-esteem.  Julie was beautiful.  Unfortunately, Julie always had men in her life that made her feel horrible about herself.  Julie was physically and emotionally abused in relationship after relationship.  Julie was critical of Tina’s appearance but Tina knew that Julie just felt bad about herself.  Julie needed someone like Tina to make her feel better about her appearance.  Tina would always compliment Julie.

    Tina could juggle 4 balls at one time with some level of comfort but a fifth ball always overwhelmed her.  So Tina dropped the ball of low self-esteem.  Julie was furious.  She knew that Tina was letting her down and was not there for her when she needed her.  Julie knew that Tina was like all the other men in her life and so she cursed at Tina and told her she did not want to be friends anymore.  Tina was devastated.

    Tina met Tom in college.  Tom gave Tina the ball of suicide.  Tom had constant anxiety attacks.  He also thought about suicide.  He had thoughts of giving up the fight.  Tina was the person who could always distract him from those thoughts.  She always left him feeling better.  One day Tom killed himself.  Tina missed three of his calls that day.  Tina felt responsible for his death.  She let him down.

    It was not long until Julie forgave Tina.  She told her she wanted to be friends again.  So Tina began once again to juggle the ball of low-self esteem.

    Tina could juggle 4 balls at one time with some level of comfort but a fifth ball always overwhelmed her.