I am not sure I fit in here. I have friends here but I am not sure I fit in the group.
I always feel left out of the little circle group of friends. It is hard to put a finger on but I will try to explain.
It feels like xanga has these circles of friendships. People all get together and they have their circle of friends. They talk together and interact in a personal way. But I always feel left out of the circle. I am not sure why. Have you ever had a friend in a circle of friends and you liked the person and could talk to the person but when the person was in the group, you felt left out? That is how it feels.
So I can interact with people on a personal level but I never feel apart of the group.
Another way this manifest itself is a person can be critical of me and say something really hateful about me and for the most part, people keep walking. I am not that way. If you are my friend and someone is critical of you, I will clean their clock. But that is me. I tend to see friendship as loyalty. I am sure there are reasons for that response. I don't expect people to defend me when I get more negative posts than most. (For some reason I don't get this negative response in real life so it must just be the internet).
But every once in a while, I would like to be part of the group. I want to join a clique and laugh along and feel like I am one with the crowd. But I want my group to include everyone and not leave anyone out.
Perhaps I just take things too personally.