I come with story. Gather closer my youngins. Thanksgiving is over, rub your bellys… I haven’t lost my virginity yet. The xangan chik I spoke to once on the phone sent me a comment, she wants to see me, she just wants to see how big of a loser I am. I wore a seat belt, felt like ripping it off. Played Gears of War 3. Ate a burrito for the twentieth time. Actually, there is this one chik who might be interested in me, we’ ll see. I have to get out of my room and meet more people. I am not afraid to die, the sooner the better, I’m tired of being alone.

But you want to know what’s worst then loneliness? Hating to be around people, my loneliness is incurable. Loneliness, emptiness, wrath, hatred, insecurity, trusting problem. I doubt I can change what I have become. A nobody. A void. The fire within refuses to give up. What I say is common knowledge, but, I feel like it needs to be said. We are selfish bastards. We are rotting. Take the nicest person you know, someone who smiles a lot. There is evil in all of us. You spend your time around family and friends for good times. Like pidgeons gathering together eating seeds. You are all wasting your lives. Your master degree means shit. So does your money, achievements. Go out your way to feel satisfied around 200 others. Alone still.

Observe, let us take Dan as the perfect guy. Why does he insist so hard life is good when you are strong enough to fight your battles. I got news for, there is no battle, there are no lessons to be learned, its all in your head. The drug addict sees how pointless life is, the successful careerist is driven by her ego or his, we are going to be wrong no matter what life-style we choose.

It isn’t about power, the most important, the human needs simplicity… if you have no clue what I am talking about, clueless naive. Distractions, all you have are distr. You ever cut someone’ s throat? I think our society produces villains. Yes, I am throwing out random stuff out there. Today I shall eat once more.